What is Church?

So, y'all know I'm a pretty strong Christian. Pretty strong, as in if I don't have friends I crumble.
Lately, like for the past... a while... I haven't been going to church. I don't know what it is, but I just don't really see the point, except for taking communion. My church has been going through rough times, and I just don't feel like it's God's place anymore.

~Perfection~

What do I have to do
To be accepted by my friends?
What do I have to do
To gain nice words from them?
What do I have to do
To let some friendships mend?
What do I have to do
So they'll see the perfect gem?

I have to be perfect.
I have to be cool.
I have to be pretty,
And follow the rules.

What do I have to do
To be accepted by my parents?
What do I have to do
To gain respect from them?
What do I have to do
So they'll see my repentance?
What do I have to do
So they'll see the perfect gem?

I have to be perfect.
I have to be kind.
I have to make use
Of my small, silly mind.

What do I have to do
To be accepted by myself?
What do I have to do
To give myself a ten?
What do I have to do
To see beauty in myself.
What do I have to do
To I'll see the perfect gem?

I have to be perfect.
I have to be right.
I have to be noticed,
And be a delight.

What do I have to do
To be accepted by Daddy?
What do I have to do
To be anointed by his dove?
What do I have to do
To make my Father happy?
What do I have to do
To have my Abba's love?

I have to be perfect.
I have to be holy.
I have to be spotless,
BUT JESUS IS THAT FOR ME.

A Song

I don't usually like country music, but this song always gives me chills.

We were both young, when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts-
I'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air.

I see the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.
I see you make your way through the crowd-
You say hello, little did I know...

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles-
And your daddy said "stay away from Juliet"-
And I was crying on the staircase-
begging you please don't go...
And I said...

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet, because we're dead if they knew-
So close your eyes... escape this town for a little while.
Oh, Oh.

Cause you were Romeo - I was a scarlet letter,
And your daddy said "stay away from Juliet" -
but you were everything to me-
I was begging you, please don't go-
And I said...

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes-

Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a life story, baby, just say yes.
Oh, Oh.

I got tired of waiting.
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading-
When I met you on the outskirts of town.
And I said...

Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting, for you but you never come.
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think-
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...

Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say... yes.
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh.

'cause we were both young when I first saw you.

~Love Song~

The Title's Different!

TOMORROW THE CAST LIST FOR MULAN COMES OUT!!!!
Oh, man! So excited!

Alright, I'm gonna start actually titling these things now, because I realized, that my title is exactly the same thing that it says right above it. Ha! I'm not very good at titling, so bear with me.

So, today I have to stay in the library for 3 periods! Ugh! I don't even get to leave. I wonder if I have to sign out...

I need to start reading Silas Marner. I sent (at least I think I sent) all my papers to Mrs. Plehn, but I can't be sure. I'll have to print them out and take them to class. Dingbats.

Explorers just started, which means, wahoo! another 5 hours I need. Planning for 2 classes, homework for three, memorizing the stupid script... arg! I really have no time for Orchestra. I wonder when the trimester ends... March... 3rd? So long...

I don't know how many more pages of physics I have to do, but I can't bring my backpack to school. It's way to heavy. Grr...

I have a C in biology. It sucks big time. I have a bad teacher, and it's kind of hard to do the quizzes when I learned all the stuff two years ago. *slams head into wall* ARG!!!

Alright, enough school. Let's play a game!
Keyboard... QWERTY... Veggitales... Larry... Larryboy!... plungers... Tori... loveseat thing... school... NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
Signing off! Hearts and hugs to all of you.