Wednesday, December 30, 2009

My computer!!!

Hey guys,
An unforunate event has occurred... My father dropped my computer, therefore it is no longer able to charge. I am currently using my iTouch, which, however nice it may be, is not as nice as my computer. So! Until further notice, my posts will be a lot shorter and less frequent. Apologies.
To make up for this, here is a picture of my adorable kitty.





Love, Sarah
@)~

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

A Thought, A Prologue, A Drawing

While sitting in my room, I'm writing, drawing, and listening to music. One of the lines in a song by Flyleaf (great band) is "I love you, please see and believe again." A lie decided this would be the 'opportune moment' to sneak up on me and say, "Hey! What if your best friends didn't believe in God anymore?" And I said to it, "Why, that's utterly preposterous!" But it surprised me... Surprised as in so shocked that my body wouldn't move for a couple seconds.... not a very pleasant feeling. Anyways, what if that did happen? Hmm...

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What have I been drawing and writing? Here it is!! Doodoodoo!!


    She was surrounded. The five men had backed her into an alley and were closing in, knives in hand. The girl, Morgan, backed up until she hit a large dumpster. All around her were tin trashcans and plastic trash bags. She couldn’t back up any more. She was completely trapped. The brick walls of the apartments surrounding the alley looked miles high, and the only windows were on the second story. The man on the far right of the gang spoke, an evil smirk pasted on his ugly, scarred face. “Well, little girl… Give it up! Maybe if you don’t put up a fight we’ll be a tad nicer…” He chuckled a deep, evil-sounding laugh and his companions joined in his sinister glee. Morgan shut her eyes. This is it… she thought, I’m done for… I’m sorry… She relaxed and lifted up one side of her mouth in a half-hearted smile. So, this is what the face of death looks like, huh? Not very scary…
    “Morgan!” The girl stopped smiling and tensed again. She heard a voice in her head. The voice calmly spoke a command. “Say it.”
    What? Say what?
    “You know what to say. Say it NOW.”
    “Praemium!!” Morgan shouted, without knowing what it meant. Her eyes snapped open, but instead of the five men, the looming brick walls, and the garbage, she saw bright white, as if a white star had swallowed her. She also felt strangely peaceful – the way she felt right before she fell asleep.
    From the outside, though, this was an even stranger occurrence. The girl who had once looked helpless, harmless, and innocent was now the most frightening sight the gang had ever seen. Her body slowly paled and became as white as snow, as did her brown hair, and she glowed as brightly as the sun. Only her eyes were dark – they were completely pure black. She began to levitate, her feet lifting a couple feet off of the ground. Her black, lightweight skirt and her glowing white hair began wildly thrashing about in the incredibly strong wind that seemed to originate from the girl’s body. Ever her blue shirt, which was almost skintight, was affected by the wind. The men looked away, shielding their faces from the bright light and wind. The trash bags began rolling around, and the trashcans toppled over. Even the large dumpster was pushed away from the girl.
    She raised her arms from her torso so they were straight out to the sides and faced her palms up. Over each of her hands, a small, light blue flame formed. She brought her hands together and in front of her swiftly, keeping her elbows extended, as if she was clapping. Everything paused for a split second – the fire and wind disappeared and it was silent. Then a sound came out, but not the normal sharp sound of a clap. It was the deafening sound of an explosion. Suddenly, the wind resumed, and everything around Morgan burst into flames – the dumpster, the trash bags. Even the tin trashcans glowed red-hot as they burned. The flames were normal orange flames, but instead of the warm glow of a normal fire, these flames cast a shadow over all around them. The entire alley was pitch black, except the flames and the girl, who now glowed the color of an x-ray. The men had also been engulfed in flames and lay on the ground, writhing in pain, trying in vain to put out the fire.
    Morgan only felt peace and sleepiness as all of this was happening. It was as if an entirely different consciousness had taken over her body, and she was just in a dark room of nothing, curled up and floating around. Then she heard men screaming, and fire crackling. The overwhelming peace started to diminish and she found herself feeling completely exhausted. She was in control of her body again, but all she wanted to do was sleep. She looked around, but all she saw was fire, then she slumped to the ground, unconscious.

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The quote is "... but instead of the warm glow of a normal fire, this flame cast a shadow over all around it..."
The quality is really terrible... but I don't know how to work my scanner, so this is the best I'll get. *pout*

Saturday, December 26, 2009

10 things

Okay, I'm the kind of girl who can be completely serious... then two seconds later make a u-turn and be laughing my head off. I can also switch topics in a conversation like a maniac. Well... I am a maniac, but who cares?
Today is a random kind of day, so this is a random kind of post. 10 random things! Yeah!

1) In answer to your question, Mr. Frey, the manga of Rosario Vampire is really good. I LOVE the style, and I really wish the author made more... but he only wrote one more thing... I haven't watched the anime... don't think I will...

2) I saw two and a half movies today. Yes, two and a half. First, I went with my friend Rachael and her cousins to see Sherlock Holmes. Props to Robert Downey Jr.! He was quite spectacular, and pulled off the British accent quite nicely. Amazing creepy/gothic factor in the movie. That was something I was looking for. Throughout the books, Sir Arthur Conan Doyle has a great gothic side to the story... I love it... Then we watched a quarter of Bedtime Stories. Quite the hilarious movie. Then Rachael's mother decided we should watch 500 Days of Summer, so we did. It was good, but really, really, really sad..... Also, a complete chick flick. Then we watched another quarter of Bedtime Stories! Then my dad came to pick us up...

3) I just posted this on accident, sorry. GWAH!! That's slightly irritating... hrm.

4) I don't know how to delete a post, but keep it for later editing... I just realized that. Help!!

5) I've been in a Taylor Swift mood for a while. Currently listening to Love Story for the second time... in a row... I love that song! It's so sweet! *ahem* Sorry for my little girl moment.

6) Uhm... I have a fancy wristband. But it's not mine. My friend left it at my house. So I'm babysitting it. Hehe, that sounds funny. Anyways, it's living in my room for a while. I do hope it's comfortable.

7) 7 is my second favourite number, just because of the way it looks. I also like 4. 10 is my favourite number, although I'm not sure why. Also, J is my favourite letter in the alphabet... consequently it's the 10th letter in the alphabet. I didn't realize that for a while...

8) <- that looks like a smiley face. P) <- that looks like a pirate. QK <- that looks like a ninja

9) WE GOT A WII FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!! It's super exciting! Yay!!!

10) I'm debating on what music to get with my $15 worth of iTunes credit... Innocence and Instinct, Red's album, is my first choice. Suggestions?

Love, Sarah
@)~

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Merry Christmas!!

Well, everybody's doing a post like this, so I thought I ought to follow suite.

I can't believe it's Christmas Eve already.... I mean, Nutcracker was done four days ago.........

Anyways, yesterday we had a party!! It was a pretty awesome party. We watched iRobot (which was a pretty good movie)... throughout the entire movie I was involved in an epic poking battle, though... Oh my, that was incredibly fun. We played White Elephant. I ended up getting something I gave to one of my friends last year...... a fuzzy unicorn coloring poster.... and some Reese's, so all's forgiven. *smile* We played cutthroat mafia, although I neither killed nor was killed... sad... Unfortunately by the end I had a terrible headache and had to lay on a couch while everybody went outside and had a snowball fight. *pout* Jalen was awesome and talked to me, though, to get my mind off the headache. (Thanks, J! You can have your wristband back soon...)

I've been reading a manga called Rosario Vampire. It's pretty good.... really weird... but then again, who am I to talk? This morning I looked in the mirror and saw myself as anime character....... sign number one that I'm addicted. *chuckle*
Also, I discovered my new favorite outfit. Black tights, my old beat up converse, black 3/4-sleeve tee, and a purple plaid dress over it. It's cool and cute and makes me really happy!! Yay!! Anyways...

I don't really have anything else to say... I should get to sleep so I can wake up tomorrow... If I have photos of it, I'll try to put them up.

Speaking of photos... Today I was looking through the Photobooth photos on my computer and ran across some I did to try and make a default photo for my blog. The one I have currently is... me at Frankenmuth, I think...
Well, here are two I took that I really like. Sorry for the background, but my room is full of stuff....

The top one is me with my violin! Yay!
Violin is something I do on the side... I teach to earn money... but that's about it. I'll probably quit after high school.

The bottom one is just me. No violin. I love my Kogepan shirt, though.... Kogepan means 'burnt bread' in Japanese. I also have a cool necklace from a cool friend. *smile*
This'll probably be my default photo now.

Anyways, merry Christmas to y'all! Hope it's wonderful and Christful in every single way!

Love, Sarah
@)~

Monday, December 21, 2009

There's a lot happening right now...

Hey!
Well, a lot has been piled on me... Nutcracker is over, and I just want a break... T_T

1) Something's wrong with my mom... she woke up on Friday with a pounding headache... She's lost 50% of her hearing... she can't really drive... Something's just not right. But... we don't know what it is. So prayer would be mucho appreciated. Thanks a bajillion.

2) My sister and our friend Brandon aren't interacting anymore... which is annoying and sad. They used to call each other big brother and little sister... but..... yeah... Anyways, that's stressing me out.... probably a lot more than it should, but still.... It's a bit depressing, as well.

3) CHRISTMAS IS IN FOUR DAYS. WHAT THE HECK. I still haven't done any Christmas shopping... Waaaaah!!!!! I haven't even thought about presents! Noooooo!!!
However, we can't forget it's CHRISTmas... not Giftmas...

4) Nutcracker is over and I'm just dead tired.... *sluggish feeling*

5) My room has been neglected since... beginning of December-ish. Let's just say I can't see half the floor...... augh.....

Okay, enough sobstories. Happy story time!!

My favourite song by Kutless (at present) is I'm Still Yours. It's so amazing... It really makes me think.

Oh, by the by... If you don't know me in person... I'm not British or from the south... I'm from Michigan! And it's very, very cold... But I spell somethings the British way (such as favourite and armour) and say y'all a lot...  just in case you were wondering...

That's all, I think... My head is swimming. Blarg.
Love, Sarah
@)~

I'm Still Yours ~ Kutless

If You washed away my vanity
If You took away my words
If all my world was swept away
Would You be enough for me?
Would my beating heart still sing?

If I lost it all
Would my hands stay lifted
To the God who gives and takes away

If You take it all
This life You've given
Still my heart will sing to You

When my life is not what I expected
The plans I made have failed
When there's nothing left to steal me away
Will You be enough for me?
Will my broken heart still sing?

If I lost it all
Would my hands stay lifted
To the God who gives
And takes away

If You take it all
This life You've given
Still my heart
Will sing to You

Even if You take it all away
You’ll never let me go
Take it all away
But I still know

That I'm Yours
I'm still Yours

Oh, I'm Yours
I'm still Yours
I'm still Yours

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Whoa, Awesome!!

Hey guys!
I got back from the theatre a little while ago. We just had THE greatest show EVER! Oh my goodness... Sugar Plum Faerie (Allison) was PERFECT. Clara was gorgeous, as always. It was really, really great.
The two o'clock show is the one they filmed. It went pretty well. Nothing terrible happened. Well, Spanish missed their lift, but that was about it. And they covered it well. But right now I'm really excited!
Tomorrow is our last show... :( Actually, my pointe shoes are on the brink of death, so I'm pretty happy it's almost over.

I also changed my editor so now it's all cool lookin' and fancy.

Uhm...... I don't really have anything to post. I'm having a Taylor Swift kinda night.
"Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess." LOVE that line.

Anyways, I should get to bed. 
Night, y'all!

Love, Sarah
@)~

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

A Mumbled Jumbled Mess

Pretend it's all okay.
Pretend it won't hurt us.
Pretend we're perfectly fine.
We'll have fun at this masquerade.
We'll dance and laugh.
We'll talk and joke.
Nothing can hurt us behind our masks.
Nothing can touch us now.
Hide our true colors.
Hide what's behind.

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I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to lose you. If I lose you, I won't be myself anymore. I'll sometimes wear the mask. People won't be able to see the true me then. The real me. The me I want people to know. The me that loves. The me that hates. The me that feels emotion. My mask covers emotion. My mask covers love. My mask covers hate. My mask can't hide the real me from myself. The me that's in pain. The me that's suffering. My mask covers my whole self, and unless you really know where to look, you'll lose me. You'll lose the real me. I don't want to hide behind my mask.
Will someone unmask me? Shame comes with unmasking, but I don't care. I don't want to play this game anymore. I just want to be able to love. I just want to be able to feel joy. The mask hinders emotions. The mask saturates me in insensitivity. Shame will go away. Shame is a tiny, tiny demon. Demons are easily beaten down and destroyed.
Please... steal my mask away. Reveal my true self. I can't do it alone, because I've lost the border between the mask and my face. I can't see it. Find the border. Tear off the mask. Without it I will be able to love you.
But you have a mask. Will you let me take it off? Will you allow me to see the true you? The you that loves with unhindered love? The you that feels joy without boundaries? The real you? The you I want to love?

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"I’m not afraid, I’m not ashamed, I’m not to blame,
Welcome to the masquerade.
I’m not ashamed, I’m not afraid, I’m not okay,
Welcome to the masquerade"
~ Thousand Foot Krutch

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Hey guys,
Well, I'm not happy right now. One of my best friends has decided that he is going to be the hero and go off and prepare himself for I-don't-know-what alone. Well, alone with Jesus. I mean, I guess that's cool. But it kind of makes me sad. I mean, I worked really hard to keep him in our circle of friends. Hm... failed at that, I guess. I don't know what to do now. I mean, I really want to chase after him and tell him that we need him back.... but I also think maybe it's better just to let him go. I mean, he said he'd come back... eventually...
Well, let's compare. Maybe that'll help us think. And I mean me when I say us, I'm just making myself plural.

Reasons for him to stay:
~He's going to college next year. He should stay for this last semester.
~I'll miss him. Of course, this is a selfish reason... but whatever.
~I don't think leaving would be good for him... for many reasons.

Reasons for him to leave:
~It'd be a whole lot less stressful for all of us involved with him.
~We all need time to cool off and chill out.
~ ... I can't think of another reason.

I just want him back. He's my big brother. Well, not blood, but he's like my big brother. Losing friends is painful. I've already learned this first hand. I don't want to go through it again. I know I'm sounding awfully selfish... But I don't want him to go through that, either. If he does this, he's going to lose so many people.
And if you see this, Nii-chan... I miss you. I don't want you to go. I'm sorry...

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Sorry for the depressing post, y'all.
Alright, well, I'm in the midst of Nutcracker right now!! Aaaaah!!!!! Today was opening night. Well... REAL opening night. We had a school show yesterday, but that doesn't really count.
It went quite well. One spill... Sugar Plum Faerie slipped.... oops.
Makeup is STILL on my face after a shower, 3 kinds of makeup remover/face cleanser.... gaaaaah.....
Anyways, it's really late, and we have two shows tomorrow!! Plus Disco! Aaah! I'm so excited!! I'll see if I can get any pictures.... But I'd need to steal the camera from my sister. Hm....
Oh, and Merry Christmas! Six more days! ......... wait, WHAT?!? SIX MORE DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS?!??? ............... AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *minor freak out* ... ahem. Wow, I can't believe it.... Nutcracker really has taken over my life! Gah! >_<

Love, Sarah
@)~

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Yeah, it's really late.

I can't sleep. There's way too much on my mind.
I also had root beer about 3 hours ago, so that doesn't help.

Anyways, I just need to let my brain relax. Just let a bunch of junk out.
I apologize if the spelling/grammar in this post is atrocious, but I don't type well late at night.

Anyways, my mind is kind of all over the place.
Some of my closest friends and I are caught in this nasty fight. Well, not exactly a fight... but this ain't goin' so hot. I don't know what's wrong, but something is messing with us. It's not cool.

On top of that, Nutcracker tech starts tomorrow. I still need to work on fixing a tutu, sewing a pair of pointe shoes, getting a new leotard, finding blush, finding gel, the list goes on and on.

In addition to THAT, Christmas is soon, and I don't have gifts for any of my friends. I don't have time. Nutcracker ends on the 20th... so that gives me five days for family. I have no idea what to get anybody.

And I'm sick. For the second time this month.

I'm sorry for whining. I'm just kind of really sick of stress. I thought it would leave after school..... but no. It lied. Dang it...

Well, I thought I made a post yesterday, the 14th, but I guess I was wrong. Hm...
My days have been a squashed together. I'll be pretty glad once Nutcracker is over and I can just rest from everything.

Alright, there's a yawn. I should probably go to sleep, considering it's... wow... really early.
I feel bad leaving you with a post that's all bad things.......

So..... good things? Good things good things. I've been having really random happy moments today. I also found purple eyeliner. Rawr means I love you in dinosaur. I'm really random right now! Yes! No! Nay! Horses eat hay! Oi vey... ha, that rhymed and I didn't even mean it to.

Love, Sarah
@)~

Sunday, December 13, 2009

TWO DAYS!!!! AAAAAAH!!!!!!

Hey look! Post 123! That's pretty exciting!

Anyways, two days until the theatre!!!! AAAAAAAH!!!!!!! I'm so excited!!!!!!!!!

Also, I added a new widget/gadget/whatchamacallit. So now you can rate my posts! Huzzah! I have yet to know if it works... so test it, please! *smile*

Yesterday was one of the better days of my year. Merci beaucoup to the Sparrows! Rest in pieces, pointy stick... *laugh*

Mm... I don't really know what to post.

I've been sick for a couple days...

Sorry for all these random spaces. I'll leave now. Sayoonara!

Love, Sarah
@)~

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Nutcracker yet again!!!

Hey guys!

I'm super excited! I'm in the Nutcracker again this year, and next week we move into the theater!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!! Tuesday is our first tech rehearsal!!!! I'm soooooo excited, but really nervous, too. I never get stage fright, considering I've been on the stage since age 3, but I get nervous before rehearsals. Especially this year, because I'll be dancing a lot in the snow. Not real snow... Just a bunch of hole punched paper that falls from a bag in the ceiling. But it's really slippery, and last year one of the girls had a pretty big spill. Anyways, I'm excited for that. I do need to sew more pointe shoes.... hrm...

Anyways, today should be pretty fun. I got back from a pretty good ballet class a little while ago. Unfortunately, the AC in our studio is malfunctioning, so it gets incredibly stuffy in there. We had to open the window and the door so we could get some cool air... *sadface* I'll be leaving for rehearsal in about an hour, then I'm going to the Sparrow's house to watch a movie and hang out! Yay! Sadly, my sister can't join us for the movie, because she has to go to some concert. I'm so glad I don't take piano lessons anymore... *relieved sigh*

RFOTD! (Random fact of the day) Right now there is a tutu hanging from my bed, and probably shedding little paper bits all over the floor.

Hm... I feel like I'm forgetting something, but I can't figure out what...
Oh, I got a new hoodie! With wolves on it! That's exciting.

... What am I forgetting??? Ah well. I'll remember sooner or later. Probably later, while I'm dancing.

Love, Sarah
@)~

OH!!! I remembered!!! I found my phone! Well, my sister, Lydia, found my phone. Apparently I dropped it on the driveway... it was out all night... whilst it was snowing... T_T
The only damage it suffered, however, was a nasty looking crack on the front. Huzzah!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

A New Gadget!!

Hey guys!
So, I'm uber-excited! I just got a music player on my blog!!! It's waaaaay at the bottom... check it out! You can also skip or pause the song as you, my dear reader, wish. Pretty nifty, huh. Thanks to Jessica for the idea... even if it wasn't a direct you-should-get-this-thingy idea.

Anyways... at current the songs are
1) Wrapped in Your Arms ~ Fireflight :: This is pretty much my favourite song ever.
2) You'll Always Be My Best Friend ~ Relient K :: This is my current second favourite.
3) There For You ~ Flyleaf
4) Fearless ~ Taylor Swift
5) Time of Dying ~ Three Days Grace
6) Keep Holding On ~ Avril Lavigne :: I usually don't like her songs, but this one is amazing.
7) The Reason ~ Hoobastank
8) Jesus Freak ~ DC Talk

Suggest songs you like, and mayhap they'll end up on here.
I have to go... there was one more thing I wanted to post though. I'll do that tonight, I guess.

Love, Sarah
@)~

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Sad day...

Today is the first Tuesday in a four month I have not had to get up at an insane hour. That's because Explorers (our homeschool group) is over... *poutpout*
I enjoyed sleeping in quite a bit, however I dislike the not-getting-to-see-people part. Tuesday is my seeing-people day! Lifeteen is canceled as well, because it's (let's see if I get this right) the Feast of Immaculate Conception. Meaning there's Mass instead of Prayer Meeting... And well... I won't go to the mass... So I don't get to see any of my Lifeteen friends either. *sadface*
Instead of going there tonight, I'm going to my ballet teacher's house to eat soup and build a gingerbread house! YES!!!
Alright, I need to go work on history now.

Love, Sarah
@)~

Monday, December 7, 2009

I want to post...

...but I don't know what to post about. Hm... I guess I'll just tell y'all random facts about this week.

1) I lost my phone... dang it... I really need to find that... Maybe if I cleaned my room more often... heh heh...
2) Last night I went to mass at my friend's church. That was nice. I finally got the courage to go up during the Eucharist and ask for a blessing... *talks to self* Sarah, Fr. Ed really isn't that scary. Silly child.
3) I'm loving this 'no homework' thing right now. Unfortunately, I'll need to start catching up with algebra and history now... *poutpout*
4) I've been really tired lately. Which really isn't cool. At all. Urg... I'll be happy when Nutcracker is over.
5) Yesterday was St. Nicolas' day! So we got presents! Yay! I got this itty bitty speaker thing for my iPod. It's pretty sweet.
6) I changed my hair... I'll post a picture sometime... maybe... if I remember...
7) I found the greatest song EVER! You'll Always Be My Best Friend by Relient K. It made my friend's mom cry.... oops. o.O

Mm... I think that's enough random for one day.
Wait, not quite. This morning I (finally) got my computer to upload some CDs. Now I have both Taylor Swift and Fearless by Taylor Swift, Awake by Skillet, and uhm.... Kutless... whatsitcalled... Well, anyways. I have 4 new albums on my iPod now! YES!!!
... IT IS WELL! That one! It Is Well by Kutless. So I have like... 42 new songs.... well, they're not all new. 41 new songs. I had one before. I'm happy!!!

Lyrics to You'll Always Be My Best Friend :
[Matt Hoopes on vocals]

I wish I knew you
Way back when
Before you were part of my plans
I think that we would have been friends

There's only time to live our lives
And you'll be the one who's by my side
And I can promise you then
You'll always be my best friend

Till the end when we part
I will give you my heart
And I'll promise to love you with all that it is
And I'll promise to be there whenever you need me
Because you'll always be my best friend

You'll always be my best friend [x5]

Awesome song. Listen to it sometime.


Love, Sarah
@)~

Saturday, December 5, 2009

I Love You

I can't remember if I posted on this a while back... it might have been a journal entry...
Well, anyways.

"I love you." That's such a beautiful phrase. It sounds nice, it feels nice, it even looks nice! If someone says, "I love you," to you, and really means it, it makes you feel all warm and fuzzy inside!
I can say "I love you" in a bunch of different languages, too!
Je t'aime, ich liebe dich, te amo, te iubesc, ti amo, daisuki, ya tebya lyublyu, rawr, and I love you. French, German, Spanish, Romanian, Italian, Japanese (I can write it, too), Russian , dinosaur (haha), and English. I can also sign it! That's ten different languages!! Sweet!

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Madly in Love...

What does it mean? Like you're so crazy that you're in love? Or that you're so in love that your crazy? Or you're really angry because you're in love? Or you in love because you're really angry??? I'd like input on this.... It's mostly the second, I think... Ah well.
Anyways, you're probably wondering why I'm thinking about this. Truth be told, I don't really know. It's just been on my mind today.

Well, I've been feeling really bleh lately. I got home from Richmond after Thanksgiving and was still sick. I've been sick for about a week. It's kinda starting to bug me... Well, at least all the school I have is going to the library some time in the near future... meaning after Christmas... hehe.
Uhmmmmmm-uhmm-uhmm... that's it... I think...
Oh, I'm watching an anime series called D.Gray Man. It's really cool... I have like... 10 more episodes.

That's all!
Love, Sarah
@)~

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

What was that?

Hey guys,
So, last night I went to a prayer meeting. I've been sick, I was tired, and I didn't eat dinner, so I was feeling really out of it. Well, I don't know what happened, but I was feeling really, really sad. I kept feeling like something was going to take my friends away. Like it was taking them away... I was just shaking and crying, and could hardly move by myself... I didn't want to let go of my friend who was sitting praying with me. It got so bad that I ended up having to be carried to my car. Not cool.
I don't know what it was, but I don't want it to come back. I know that it was pushing lies at me, because really? What's going to take you guys away? However, it was scary. I was in a really weak state, too, so it got to me way more than it normally would....
Soooo prayer would be super cool....
I'm better now. Well, somewhat. I can walk now... My nose is incredibly stuffy, probably from a combination of being sick and crying... I feel kinda light-headed, too... Ah well. I'll be fine. No worries!

Oh, another thing. Don't worry. About anything. I know everybody does, but it's really not healthy. I appreciate it when people worry about me, but I don't really like it... I mean, I know it means they care enough to fret, but worry just leads to stress... which is probably one of the main factors of the episode as described above. So! Don't worry! God will take care of it in the way and in the time he has planned.

On a happier note, Explorers is over for the semester, so I don't have much homework for a while! Yes! I need to think of Christmas and Nutcracker now... *determined* Alright! Come on Sarah! Only a couple more weeks!

Love,
@)~

Monday, November 30, 2009

The Last Day of November?!?

Hey y'all!

I just got back from an excellent trip in Richmond, VA. It was absolutely gorgeous. Most of the leaves are still on the trees so it looks way more like Fall than Winter. Welcome back to MI, where we have six months of winter!
The last day we were there we went to get Christmas trees for our cousins. We came back with two decently sized ones. We spent the rest of the evening at our Uncle Roy and Auntie Pam's house decorating the tree, drinking hot apple cider, and building a fire. It was really nice.
On the way home, we stopped in Baltimore to hang out with our cousins, Natalie and Kristin, and our friends, Jessica and Jacob. We went bowling then ate at a Korean restaurant. Yum...
We were headed home and I was driving.... and then we hit the mother of all traffic jams. We were on the highway at a standstill. We moved probably half a mile in an hour. Then all of the sudden, it cleared up, just like that. It was very, very bizarre. Needless to say, we got way behind with our schedule and didn't get home until 1:25am. I only drove until we got to Breezewood, PA, where we stopped to get some food. Unfortunately, I had an extremely hard time sleeping, so I kept waking up... I thought quite a bit on this trip, which is something I rarely have time for... haha.
Tomorrow we have the last day of Explorers, our homeschool group. We're going to dissect a brain! Yay! A sheep brain, not a person brain... But this also means that, after tomorrow, I will have NO homework until... January! Huzzah!
I have to right a paper on cell death now... hehe.
On another note, I'm in a very good mood today. Hooray for enough sleep!

Love, Sarah
@)~

Friday, November 27, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving, etc. etc.

Hey y'all!
Well, for the first time in... I don't remember how long, we're down south for the Thanksgiving. Down south as in Richmond, Virginia. We're hanging at our grandparents' house for a few days, the hopefully we can get to Baltimore, Maryland to visit the Feltners!!
We had a great Thanksgiving. Went to our cousin and her husband's new apartment... met our other cousin's fiancée, who's really nice... just kinda chilled. It's been pretty awesome. Except I have a sore throat... *sad face* And it's really cold here. Well, not really cold. Just cold. 50ish. Michigan must be 35... yuck.
Today we went to this historic farm. It was kinda like a park, I guess... but it was pretty sweet. We were walking around, and one of the guys who worked there asked us to feed the cows! (Now my coat has hay all over it...) Then he showed us the kitchen garden. It was pretty neat.
Uhm... that's all. I think. I'm so tired right now...
Love, Sarah
@)~

Monday, November 23, 2009

Just Another Day...

So, today we ate dinner as a family. This doesn't happen all that often, because I have ballet every evening.
We were just talking and I went to open a half empty bottle of soda. I twisted the cap, but instead of the gentle fizz one usually hears when opening a soda bottle, there was a loud POP! The top flew up and hit the ceiling quite hard, the came back down to an unknown location on the floor. It was quite amusing...
I need to finish writing a paper now, so byebye!

Love, Sarah @)~

Friday, November 20, 2009

....

Wait... WHAT?!?
My mom just told me the most shocking thing of my life. I still can't speak cohesive sentences.
Please... prayer would be really REALLY awesome. I'm still... I can't even process it all. I don't know what to think. Heh, my hands are shaking.
Uhm... yeah...

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Oh, silly Sarah....

So, I was again reminded of how very, very different guys and girls are.
Girls, we need to be more careful about what we say, do, and wear. I'm quite sure all of you are constantly guarding yourselves, but sometimes we slip up.
Guys, we very, very, VERY greatly appreciate when you tell us something is bugging you or causing your to stumble. At least, us girls as Christians.
That's all.

Love, Sarah
@)~

Sunday, November 15, 2009

A Book

Hey,
So I recently (as in today) finished the book Twilight by Stephanie Meyer. I started [ahem, my fingers *edit*AREN'T*/edit* working today.... apologies for any missed typos @)~] reading it simply because my friend was giving me a hard time about judging a book by its cover... literally.
Anyways, here's my review/opinion. Again, opinion. Please don't argue with me... "I dislike arguments of any kind. They are always vulgar, and often convincing." Oh, Oscar Wilde, how you sneak up on me...

Good -
I enjoyed the storyline quite a bit. Ms. Meyer is quite the storyteller.
The descriptions are also very vivid, so it's quite easy to picture the story in your head.
She also is wonderful at leading you on... So... many... cliffhangers... Like the very end of the book! *sigh*
The vampire and werewolf stories intrigue me greatly. I really like fantasy that involves legends and myths. In fact, my friends and I have this (slightly twisted) game where I am a hybrid of a freocat (female werecat) and a vampire. It's a lot of fun. Lots of people have different views on the subject... But I do not consider vampires to be evil.

Bad -
The writing was... uhm... not quite what I'd call excellent, to put it nicely. Actually, it sounded like something someone in an IEW class would write. However, it does improve throughout the book.
The characters annoyed me a tad. Bella, the main girl, is very... shall we say, needy? There was just something about her that made me picture a whiny brat. Sorry if you think differently. Edward, the vampire, is just too perfect for my taste. Sure he has his flaws, but Bella views him as an angel. There's actually a part where she thinks he's an angel. That kind of bugged me. I guess he's supposed to be too perfect, though. He ALWAYS got there just in the nick of time, though. Gr. *ahem* Sorry.
The last thing was the way Bella and Edward related with each other. I thought their relationship was portrayed in a very un-Christian manner. They were a bit... touchy, to say the least.

Overall-
I really wouldn't recommend this book... The bad outweighs the good too much in the case. For me, at any rate.

Thanks for reading! Sorry if you disagree with me. *smile*

Love, Sarah
@)~

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Pretty much the most amazing day ever.

So, today I went to Frankenmuth! My friends, the Sparrows, go every year, and this year decided to invite me and my sister. My sister ended up not going, but I went and it was so much fun!!

Let's see... first we went to the Cheese Haus (by all technical terms should be either Cheese House, or Käse Haus... but whatever). We took a picture with a huge mouse and we looked at a bunch of personalized stuff. Then we went to the basement of a place and tried on sunglasses!! There were a pair of Lady GaGa glasses!!! *laugh* We went to a place with a whole ton of silver stuff. It was amazing. There were swords, goblets, jewelry, all gorgeous. My friend got a super pretty katana. We went through a mirror maze, too. It was so confusing!! I got really lost and we ended up going around in circles for a while... haha. I got really, really hungry, so I got a Vernor's (ginger ale)... and Mr. Sparrow said my outfit matched the bottle... haha! We went to Bronner's (the gigantic Christmas store) for dinner and walked around there for a while. We took pictures with the huuuuuuge statues there. There was an emotional reunion with a penguin... *laugh*
On the way back to their house, even though it was only 8:30ish, all three of us (Jalen, Luke, and I) feel asleep in the car. Then they took me home and we had a Beetle's party... hahaha! "We don't have parties in Germany! That's stupid!" Hahahaha!!! I love you guys...

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Characters, so to speak

Hey y'all,
So, as I said, being an actor of sorts, I tend to get a bit dramatic. It's all for fun, so it's really not something I consider a flaw. Also, as I said before, I have several 'characters,' so to speak.
They're all made by greatly exaggerating a characteristic of mine. They're not actually me... because... that'd be strange. Sometimes I'll take on one of their personalities.... but just for fun. I'm not... mentally ill or anything. *smile*
They're all sisters... even though they look totally different and are all the same age. They live in a little old-Japanese style house.
In that little story I wrote, Alexis has exaggerated sympathy and kindness, while Mara has exaggerated pessimism and depression. Here are more characters with descriptions. Blah... I need to give them names, though.
You know what? It'd be really fun to write a story with all of them. Hehe!

Alexis (helper, defender) - She is very sympathetic, although not always empathetic. She tries to help everyone with their problems. Usually it works out, but sometimes it doesn't. Even when it doesn't, she won't allow herself to get discouraged. She doesn't want anyone to get hurt, so she often gets hurt. If she does get hurt, she just prays that it will all be taken away. She doesn't let anything get her down. By far the most responsible of the family.
She works at the petting zoo every other day. In her spare time, she reads classic novels.
Description: Shoulder-length red hair, gold-brown eyes, 16 years old, 5'4", very cute, dresses in bright colors.
She likes pretty much anything except burnt food, disgusting looking things, and anything too dark and drab. She gets along with everybody in the family, pretty much.

Mara (bitter) - She is very pessimistic, and usually sad. She thinks everything needs to be perfect, and is in constant fear of imperfection. She hates losing. She is often told to 'wake up' because she looks so tired and doesn't say much. She also doesn't like to disappoint anyone, so she constantly tries to please everybody. Because of this, she gets burnt a lot and gets depressed again. She doesn't have a very good spiritual life, but she's working on it.
She works at a ballet studio where she also dances five times a week.
Description: Long black hair, deep purple eyes, 16 years old, 5'2", very young looking, dresses in dark colors.
She likes roses, laughing, and dancing. She hates crying. She gets along with everyone in the family except Kitty.

Kitty (pure) - She is extremely clueless to everything going on around her. She doesn't have very many female friends, because they all think she's silly. Her guy friends enjoy teasing her to no end, but she doesn't mind... very much. She is easily interested or amused and very, very hyper. Phrases you would hear her say are 'Nya!', 'Eh?', and 'AIEEEEEEEE!!!!' [Note from the author: I have no idea how to punctuate that sentence... @)~] She loves all her friends, and usually doesn't get hurt, just because she's so clueless. She prays every day, but doesn't read her Bible.
She doesn't have a job. She hangs out with friends in her spare time.
Description: Long blondish-brown hair, large bright blue eyes, 16 years old, 5'3", always smiles, dresses in light colors.
She likes cats, hanging with her friends, and anything slightly interesting. She hates bugs and being scared. She gets along with everyone in the family except Mara.

Mina (love) - She is a very silly girl who is infatuated with a boy. She's slightly clueless as to what happens around her, but only to an extent. When she's sad, she'll lay in bed for an hour or so and cry. One of her favorite things to do is fall down and see if anyone will catch her, which they usually do. She isn't very smart, but makes her way through school. When she's not at work or with friends, she's studying. She has to work on school a lot so she won't fail. She doesn't have a very good spiritual life, but isn't working on it very much.
She works at the ice cream parlour. She doesn't have any spare time.
Description: Long brown hair, almost black eyes, 16 years old, 5'3", rather pretty, dresses in girly clothes.
She likes talking to people, gardens, and fantasy books. She hates studying. She doesn't like Bella or Mara, but gets along with everyone else in the family.

Bella (beautiful) - She is a beautiful girl who knows she's pretty, but doesn't let it get to her head. She enjoys when people tell her she's beautiful, but gets a bit annoyed with it after a while. She's very polite with grown-ups, but hates talking with them. She has a lot of good friends. Her best friend is the boy Mina has a crush on, so needless to say, there's tension between the two. She's also very smart and excels in school, so Mina is very jealous of her. She prays when she remembers, and reads her Bible every day.
She works at Busch's. She hangs out with her friends in her spare time.
Description: Long reddish-brown hair, dark green eyes, 16 years old, 5'3", extremely pretty, dresses in rich colors.
She likes hanging out with her friends and window shopping. She hates cameras. She doesn't like Mina, but gets along with everyone else in the family.

Chorine (dance) - She is obsessed with dancing. She dances at the same studio as Mara, but in a higher level. She's the rebel of the family. She has a bit of a foul mouth, but really regrets it. She is either at rehearsal, dance, or in her room studying. She enjoys music a lot, and usually has to be yelled for, due to her music being so loud. Her friends at dance are not a very good influence on her, but she does her best to not follow their examples. She doesn't like to read her Bible, but loves praying.
She also works at the ballet studio. In her spare time, she dances.
Description: Long dark brown hair - always tied up, plain brown eyes, 16 years old, 5'2", rather plain looking, dresses in loose clothes that fit over her tights and leotard.
She likes dancing and reading. She dislikes boys. She doesn't like Alexis or Mara, but gets along with everyone else in the family.

Monday, November 9, 2009

A Short Conversation

Hey guys.
Being an actor, I have multiple "characters" that take the shape of my different characteristics. Basically, they're just exaggerations one of my characteristics and they get all melodramatic. It's pretty fun, and generally cheers me up.
When I'm distressed, or annoyed, or sad, or something, I'll write about it.
Generally, I write conversations between two of my characters. This was between the depressed, pessimistic side of me, and the one who tries to help and cheer people up. Both have their flaws, but they end up helping each other.
...Ah!! I wrote only dialog!! Very well, I'll add some actions in there.
Uhm... they don't have names... so I'll call them... uhm.... Mara (bitter) is the pessimist, and Alexis (helper, or defender) is the one who helps people. Oh, there are two other dudes in here that are based off two of my friends....... I changed their names (or only insinuated they existed) for both their sake and mine. *smile*

A petite girl sat on a wooden bench in the park, her head down and her black hair falling around her shoulders and face. The park was full of trees, all shedding their colourful leaves. There were no people; it was too chilly and the sun was smothered in gray clouds. She didn't mind the cold, or the clouds. In fact, she enjoyed them. She stared down at the leaves in between her feet and thought about what had happened that day. Alexis, a cute girl with fiery red hair, walked down the sidewalk, looking for the black haired girl, Mara. She saw her and her brown eyes lit up. She jogged to the bench and sat next to her.
"Hey sis. Can you come back home? Please?"
"No."
"Come on... I'm sure this won't happen again. Please don't let it get you down."
Mara turned to look at Alexis. The tears in her dark purple eyes spilled over and ran down her cheek. "I know this won't happen again. They won't ask me again."
"At least they asked," said Alexis, looking down at her dirty shoes.
"Yeah..."
"They love you."
"And I'm letting them down!" Mara yelled. She put her head down again and the tears fell to the leaves below.
"It's not your fault."
"It wouldn't have happened if I didn't choose to dance."
"If you didn't dance, you'd be miserable."
"So what? Friends first."
"You wouldn't be able to help your friends out if you were depressed." Alexis looked sternly at her sister.
"Yeah... I also wouldn't feel like an idiot..." Mara mumbled.
"You're not an idiot."
"Yes I am."
"You're just unwise."
"AKA idiot." Mara was in a foul mood, and not ready to agree with anyone.
"No."
"Yes."
"No, you're not."
"Says who?"
Alexis gave her a knowing look. She knew who cared. Mara glanced at Alexis and quickly looked down again.
"Fine... I'm not an idiot."
"See? Told ya so."
"Shut up." Mara said, quietly. "I still do stupid stuff."
"That's because you're human, smartypants."
"So? I should be perfect."
Alexis sighed. Why was her sister such a perfectionist, she wondered. "But you're not!"
"Exactly."
"You can't be perfect!"
"I know."
"So why try?"
"Doesn't God want us to be perfect?" Mara looked up at the dim gray clouds.
"Ah, true." Alexis leaned her back against the bench.
"Also, if I don't try, I feel like a failure." Mara looked back down at the ground.
"Bah. You're not a failure."
"I let my friends down. I let my teachers down. I let... my family down." The last part of her sentence was so quiet that Alexis hardly caught it.
"There are people who you don't let down."
"No there aren't."
"Yes, there are."
"Who?"
Alexis was silent.
"See? I've let everyone down in one way or another."
"But you also help people."
"Then I let them down."
Alexis sighed. This girl just wouldn't give up. "Not necessarily."
"Yes, necessarily."
"You haven't let Jesse down yet."
"Just watch, I will. I did."
"Yeah, then you helped him."
"No I didn't."
"Yes you did."
"Yeah, and it killed part of me." A leaf from a nearby tree slowly drifted to the end of the bench. Mara watched it as she said this.
"Trust."
Mara looked at her sister, confused. "What does that have to do anything with this?"
"Trust! What holds friendships together?" Alexis wondered why she said this, too.
"What if I can't."
"You can."
"No I can't." Mara looked down again.
"If you fall, there will be people there to catch you."
"There haven't been."
Alexis got up and walked to face her sister. "Look at me."
Mara looked up and saw Alexis with her hand raised.
SMACK
Mara looked down, her eyes wide, her cheek stinging from the blow and the cold.
"Yes there have." Alexis put her hand down and glared at her sister.
"Fine. There have."
"I love you." Alexis offered her hand to help her sister off the bench.
"... I love you, too." Mara took Alexis' hand and they walked back home, together.

My characters seem to be as ADD as I am! Their conversations always seem to jump back and forth... ah well. They also don't resemble one another very much... black hair, red hair... purple eyes, brown eyes... there are no such thing as purple eyes! Oh well!!
I'm not a very good writer, I apologize. I suppose I can justify myself a little by repeating the fact that this was just dialog, and I had to add some actions so you wouldn't get confused about the speaker...
I may introduce you to my other 'characters' at a later date. In fact, I probably will. Even though, I always say I'll post something I never really end up doing it... But whatever.
I did try to post something more about peace, but I suppose I'll just have to wait until I get inspired again...
Uh... yeah that's it. Enjoy!

Love, Sarah (and Mara, and Alexis)
@)~

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Breaking News!

Not really...
I went to Target today to get a present for my bestest friend, Rachael. We've been friends for oh... 12 years now? Anyways, we got her footie pajamas. Pretty great. Anyways, I found a wonderful coat there! It's all wooly and warm and it's really pretty. Makes me happy.
Also... there was something else... but I can't remember.
Oh well.

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Have you ever been involved in a battle? Spiritual, mental, verbal, or even physical? A really serious one? It's not cool, in any sense of the word. Except maybe the sense that you get freakish chills down your spine.
Well, I'm kind of involved in one right now. A spiritual battle, that is. It's slowly ripping apart friendships, and stressing me out immensly...
Prayer would be super-much appreciated.
Thanks.

Love, Sarah
@)~

Friday, November 6, 2009

It's just that kind of day...

Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
I feel like a slug!
It's just that kind of day.
There are people invading my house.
I've been stuck in my room all day.
Relaxation is too stressful.
I'm writing in a weird style!
These are random Sarah thoughts...
My brain is turning into mush.
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Love, Sarah
@)~

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Happy Wednesday, everyone!

Hey!
I haven't posted in a bit...
I haven't been doing much recently... besides the usual dance, school, YG, etc.

Well, last night I was at Lifeteen, Christ the King's youth group. Usually when I'm at those, I'll hang out with God for a bit, but mostly hang out with friends. Yesterday, I hung out with friends for the designated 'hang out' time, then hung out with God for most of the rest of the time.
It was so awesome.
I have a spot where I go when I just want some alone time with God. I just stand there, or pace back and forth down this aisle and pray, sing, or just listen. It's pretty cool.
Highly recommended: Find a 'God spot' and hang out there a lot. Not saying God is more there than anywhere else, but your body will associate that spot with God. Just how the brain works.
Anyways... Also, pray by yourself before praying for others. Or, better yet, have someone pray for you before you pray for someone else. This can really help with strength during prayer. I found this out the hard way... blah... But yeah, polish up your armour before you help someone else. Verse... verse... verse...
Matthew 7:3 - Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?
Sorry if this is out of context or something, but I think it fits pretty well here.
(My hand just twitched... what in the world... anyways....)
So yeah... don't try to help others if you're not ready to get hit. 'Cause we'll get hit. I don't know when, I don't know how, but I know we will. Hey, the devil doesn't like it when we hang out with God. He'll try to push us away. He'll try to attack us in every way he can. Stay strong. Keep the faith, brothers [and sisters]. ~ Paul... the super awesome Epistle guy, for lack of a better name.
Uhm....... yeah! That's it.
Oh yeah, one of my best friends is getting wisdom teeth out tomorrow. Yuck... so please pray for him. Thanks. :)

Peace and love,
Sarah @)~

P.S. Peace is something God has really been pushing at me. One of my bigger faults is freaking out over the littlest things. I'm getting better, though! So, peace is cool. Peace as in not worrying, not freaking out, not stressing... yeah... I may post more in depth about this later... if I ever get around to it.

P.P.S. This got a lot deeper than I thought it would.... God inspires at odd times, doesn't He?

Monday, October 26, 2009

I changed it a tad

Hey!
I changed the colors a bit. I still like the format, but the colors are a little happier now. It actually looks a lot like a t-shirt I got at Ballet Magnificat! this year... Well, anyways. I think that's it.
Oh, and nobody commented on the last post, so I guess you guys are all doing school.... which is what I should be doing. :)

Love, Sarah
@)~

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Happy Anniversary!

I was looking through my posts and discovered I made my first on October 24th! It's been a year! (That's the first line of a song I like...)

So.... comments, questions, concerns... have I improved? Or not? Do you like my posts? Feedback! Yay!! This will also see how many of you have been reading. *wink*

Happy One Year!!
Love, Sarah
@)~

Friday, October 23, 2009

Dependency

Have you ever thought your life was ruined because of something horrible that happened?
I regret to say that I have. Unfortunately, it happens often. Something I wanted to happen didn't happen, or something I didn't want to happen happened. I let it eat at me until I'm snappy and rude to any one who talks to me. I become sullen and don't want to do anything.
I was thinking about this yesterday, after one of these episodes happened.
Why am I so dependent on these thing? On these people? On these events? Dependency is something I'm trying hard to fight. I want to be an independent girl who can fend for herself. *buzz* Wrong!
There's someone we need to be dependent on. We need to lean on Him for everything. We need to let ourselves go ahead and fall and trust that He's going to catch us. Guess who! God!!
Trust. Oh man... Trust. I don't even like the word. It's so hard to let everything go. If you hold onto a butterfly, its wings will be smushed (no, that's not a word) and it won't be able to fly, then it will eventually die. You don't want to hold on to the thing your holding onto until it dies. Depend on God to take care of you, your needs, your friends, and your family. Sometimes bad things happen. Bad things teach you to be more dependent on God, and other things. A bad thing happened to make me think of this post!
So... let go. Don't worry. Let God take care of you. He has a plan, and he will NOT forget you.

Love, Sarah @)~

Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? And not one of them is forgotten before God. Why, even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not; you are of more value than many sparrows. ~ Luke 12:6-7

Saturday, October 17, 2009

A Picture

So, my friend's dad has taken to calling me 'Hammy' from Over the Hedge. Hammy is a very hyperactive squirrel... He even made a picture in Photoshop comparing the two of us...
It made me laugh... a lot...

Here, have an amusing picture. ^_^

Love, Sarah aka Hammy
@)~

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Post #100!!!!

Huzzah!!!

I'm all immersed in school! So, sorry I haven't been posting a whole lot.
Anyways, on Saturday I went to one of my best friend's birthday party. It was a costume party! Which I haven't done since, oh... first grade? Hehe. Well, it was really fun. I couldn't think of a present, so my friend gave me one of the best ideas ever. It's a list: 100 Reasons Why You're Awesome. He emailed me later and said it was one of the best presents he'd ever gotten. Yay! Y'all can steal the idea if you want. :)

Well, I was listening to music and came across this song. This is a Call ~ Thousand Foot Krutch. It's soft rock, or rather, softer than most of their songs. I've been listening to them a lot lately. They started out as more hip-hop and have switched to rock/hip-hop. They're pretty cool.

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She fooled all of her friends into thinking she's so strong
But she still sleeps with the light on
And she acts like it's all right on, as she smiles again
And her mother lies there sick with cancer
And her friends don't understand her
She's a question without answers
Who feels like falling apart.
She knows, she's so much more than worthless
She needs to find a purpose,
She wonders what she did to deserve this

She's calling out to you
This is a call, this is a call out
Cause everytime I fall down, I reach out to you
And I'm losing all control now
And my hazard signs are all out
I'm asking you to show me what this life is all about

And he tells everyone a story,
Cause he thinks his life is boring
And he fights so you won't ignore him,
Cause that's his biggest fear
And he cries, but you'll rarely see him do it
And he loves but he's scared to use it
So he hides behind the music
Cause he likes it that way
And he knows, he's so much more than worthless
He needs to find the surface
Cause he's starting to get nervous

She's calling out to you
This is a call, this is a call out
Cause everytime I fall down, I reach out to you
And I'm losing all control now
And my hazard signs are all out
I'm asking you to show me what this life is all about


Have you ever felt this way before
Cause I don't wanna hide here anymore
Take me to a place where nothing's wrong
And thanks for coming, shut the door
And they say some one out there sees us,
Well if you're real, then save me Jesus
Cause I've been this way for far too long
I wasn't meant to feel alone

She's calling out to you
This is a call, this is a call out
Cause everytime I fall down, I reach out to you
And I'm losing all control now
And my hazard signs are all out
I'm asking you to show me what this life is all about


Show me what this life is all about
Show me what this life is all about

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I'd better clean my room now, so! *throws a peace sign*
Love, Sarah
@)~

Friday, October 9, 2009

*poutpout*

Hey y'all.

So, I've had a pretty bad cold for the past three days. Which really isn't cool... despite the name [sorry for puns]. It means I'm a lot grumpier, make a lot more snide comments, and me kind of miserable.
Also, one of my best friend's birthday party is tomorrow! And I can't be sick for that! That would be the most annoying ever. Ever ever ever. Anyways, prayer would be cool.
I also learned that crying amidst a cold is a really dumb idea and makes your cold worse. So... yeah.
Thanks.

Love, Sarah @)~

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

I'm bad at thinking of titles...

Ah, well.

Hey y'all!
So, I've been involved in a huge spiritual battle for the past, oh, since May? Prayer would be super duper cool.
Also, whilst browsing youtube for Bleach AMVs (yes, I'm a dork) I came across this AWESOME song. It's Frontline by Pillar. The video is from an shonen anime, so if you don't like blood, swords, or fighting... I recommend not watching it. Here's the link for their music video. It's not the best music video, but the song is really great. It's also rock/soft metal, so.... Yup, I have a weird taste in music.
Anyways, it's a song about spiritual battle, and I thought that was really cool.
Also, I'm sick... blaaah.... I have a sore throat/sinus, which is really not cool. It means I can't teach, so I can't get money... *sigh* C'est la vie.
And school is pressing. I have homework and homework and dance and EC stuff, but I don't have enough time. Y'all can relate to that, I bet. *smile*
Well, here are the lyrics. Thanks for reading.

It's not like I'm walking alone
Into the valley of shadow of death
Stand beside one another, cuz it ain't over yet
I'd be willing to bet that if we don't back down
You and I will be the ones that are holding the Crown in the end
When it's over, we can say, "Well done"
But not yet, 'cause it's only begun
So, pick up, and follow me, we're the only ones
To fight this thing, until we've won
We drive on and don't look back
It doesn't mean we can't learn from our past
All the things that we mighta done wrong
We could've been doing this all along

Everybody, with your fists raised high
Let me hear your battle cry tonight
Stand beside, or step aside
We're on the frontline

Everybody, with your fists raised high
Let me hear your battle cry tonight
Stand beside, or step aside
We're on the frontline

And we'll be carrying on, until the day it doesn't matter anymore
Step aside, you forgot what this is for
We fight to live, we live to fight
And tonight, you'll hear my battle cry
We live our lives on the frontlines
We're not afraid of the fast times
These days have opened up my eyes
And now, I see where the threat lies

Everybody, with your fists raised high
Let me hear your battle cry tonight
Stand beside, or step aside
We're on the frontline

Everybody, with your fists raised high
Let me hear your battle cry tonight
Stand beside, or step aside
We're on the frontline

We live our lives on the frontlines
We're not afraid of the fast times

We live our lives on the frontlines
We're not afraid (fades)

We've got to lead the way!
We've got to lead the way!

Everybody, with your fists raised high
Let me hear your battle cry tonight
Stand beside, or step aside
We're on the frontline

Everybody, with your fists raised high
Let me hear your battle cry tonight
Stand beside, or step aside
We're on the frontline

Everybody, with your fists raised high
Stand aside on the frontline

Everybody, with your fists raised high
Let me hear your battle cry

Everybody, with your fists raised high
Let me hear your battle cry tonight
Stand beside, or step aside
We're on the frontline

Love, Sarah @)~

Monday, October 5, 2009

Bad news, and good news

Bad news is... my iPod 'sploded. Yes, it 'sploded. The screen decided not to work anymore. :(
Good news is... I got a new one!! And it's an iTouch!! I'm very happy.

Uhm.... that's it.
Love, Sarah
@)~

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Time Machine ~ Parts 1 & 2

1

Hello. I will be your guide for tonight. Please, strap yourself into the time machine with the bright red safety belt and keep your eyes wide open. Prepare for a once in a lifetime experience.

“Please, sire. Hear me out. I only…”
“Silence!” You hear a thundering shout echo through what sounds like a vast, nearly empty room. Looking around, you see a great stone hall. You look up and see wonderful stained glass windows lining the top of one of the walls. You look down from the windows to see detailed carvings in the stone, and even further down, a large stone throne. On the throne is seated a large man, who’s face is quite the color of maroon. He is dressed in a red tunic-like garment reaching down to his feet with a leather belt around his waist. Draped around him is a long blue cloak, and on his head is a crown that looks quite heavy. He holds a scepter and is emphatically beating the end of it on the arm of his throne.
“Listen, we fight. If we do not fight, we die!” His voice booms through the hall again. He is obviously the king.
“If we fight, we die. Would rather lose all your men, or have most of them alive?” says the man, apparently the king’s advisor. “If you surrender now, the only men we will lose are the ones we have lost already.” The king shifts his weight back into his seat and grunts.
You realize you shouldn’t be there, and analyze your position. You stand behind a large pillar, which is about seven yards from the men. Even though you have a clear view of them, they seem to be oblivious to your presence. You walk out from behind the pillar and walk towards them. Hearing the clicking of your shoes, you look down. Mosaics cover the floor, and even though they’re made of grey stone, they reflect all the colours of the rainbow from the stained glass. You slow down to admire it, then continue towards the king and his advisor.
“Sire,” the man continues. “We must stand down this one time. If we refuse to surrender, those Western dogs shall overthrow us.”
“Send for food. I tire of these debates.” The king is apparently through with this conversation, and will not continue until food is brought. Food is his only consolation, or so it seems from his prodigious girth.
By this time, you have reached the throne. You wave your hand back and forth in front of the king’s face. He takes no notice. You say, “Hello,” quietly, but he continues to sit as if nothing is happening. You shout, but again, nothing happens. You look around and see a door at the opposite end of the hall.
Quickly, you start walking in the direction of the door, when a man enters from a door three steps to your left carrying a large platter covered in bread, cheese, and a variety of foods new to you. Stopping suddenly and trying not to run into the man, you gasp in horror as your leg seemingly grazes his leg. You hold out your arms to catch the platter, but strangely enough, he simply walks through them. In this strange event you have just learned that you are much like a ghost in this town.
You run towards the door, and try to grab the handle. Your hand seems to grab thin air. Again, but in vain, you try to hold the handle. Then, tentatively, your arm reaches out, so your fingers go through the door. Astonished, you continue to stretch your arm out until your shoulder goes through, including your clothes. You reach through the door with your other arm, until it goes through up to your shoulder. Then, cautiously, you press your nose against the door, only now there is no door. Your face goes completely through, as does the rest of your body, and you stand in shock for a couple seconds. You are now standing in another room, quite like the last only smaller and without any furnishings.

Hello. Understand anything yet? A male’s voice speaks to you. You shake your head in confusion, and look around to see if someone spoke to you.
Hello. I am in here. You grab your head and shout, “Who are you?”
I’m your guide, do you not remember? You are inside the time machine.
“What’s happening?” you say loudly, feeling very agitated.
Welcome to The Byzantine Empire. That man in there was the Emperor. It’s the middle of the Fourth Crusade. There is a girl you should follow. That is all I will tell you. Have a good time.
“Wait! Wait! Please, where is she?” you yell. There is only silence.

2

You stagger through the crowd in a semi-drunken stupor. Even though you seem to bump into everyone, but you feel nothing, and you continue your winding way toward an unknown destination. You see an alley and lurch towards it. You try to put your hand on the wall of gray stone, but simply fall through. Exhausted and confuse, you plop on the ground and lay back, trying to organize your frazzled thoughts.
After five minutes of gathering your senses and replaying the events of the past twenty minutes over and over in your head, you sit up. A sudden rush runs through your body and your sight dims for a split second. You cannot remember the last time you ate or drank anything. You assess your current position. You touch all your limbs; no pain anywhere. You pinch your wrist, to make sure you are still conscious. Pain shoots through your forearm. You lick your dry lips. You need to find water somewhere, but you realize that it would be somewhat impossible considering you are not capable of touching anything in this strange, ancient world.
The girl, you think. I need to find the girl, but where? You puzzle over this new predicament for a second.
Have you figured it out yet? That voice again.
“What?” you ask calmly. Now that you have regained a bit more control of your mind, you can reason a bit more. It’s the time machine! Of course. You smack yourself in the forehead for not realizing it before.
Good job, but do not hurt yourself. Now, find the girl. Use discretion.
“Discretion?! Nobody knows I exist!” There is no reply from the voice. “Do they?” you ask, half to yourself.
You cough. You need to find water. Your throat is burning and your voice is dying. As you stand, your vision dims again for half of a second, then returns. How can you get a drink if you cannot even rest against a wall?
You leave the alley and continue through the town. There is apparently a market going on. The sounds of people bartering, animals squealing, children laughing, and all sorts of other noises barrage your ears. You can also smell everything: people, sweat, food, and smells you would rather keep the source unknown. The worst is the food. Bakeries, fruit and vegetable stands, slaughterhouses, they all fill your nostrils with scents of good, and not-so-good, food.
In vain, you try to snatch an apple from the nearest fruit stand. You swipe at a string of onions hanging from the top of a vegetable stand, but your hand just passes through the tantalizing roots.
You keep walking, slowly but surely, through the market. If you stay there for much longer you are sure you will go insane [Author’s note: if it’s not too late already @)~]. Finally, after twelve agonizing minutes of passing through more people, walking by more stands, and smelling more food, the crowds thin and you find yourself on a wide dirt pathway. Continuing on your way, you occasionally come across another living being; a man leading a donkey, a couple with a small child and a cart full of corn, a soldier or two.
After a while, there are no more people on the road. However, you see a little cottage a fair way in the distance. Unfortunately, the sun is beginning to set. It gets dimmer and dimmer as you get closer and closer to the cottage. You do not, however, worry yourself about robber. Who would mug an invisible person?
The sun completely sets, and you stand on the empty road. The silence is eerie. No ambient noise from cars or millions of people crammed into tiny living spaces. There is just silence, broken with an occasional owl hoot. You look up and gasp; the stars are magnificent. With no streetlights, or house lights, billions and billions of stars are visible. You can see so many that in places they form a solid mass of pinkish-yellow light. The moon begins to rise, and it seems as if the stars shy away from it like slaves shy away from a great, or cruel, master. An animal cry shakes you out of your reverie, and you start walking again towards the cottage.

There may or may not be more. If you continue to pester me, there will be more. :)
Also, I apologize for the lack of indentation. Blogger apparently doesn't like good grammar.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Favorite Songs of the Day

It's been a year
Filled with problems
But now you're here
Almost as if to solve them
And I can't live in a world without you now

All my life
I've been searching for you
How did I survive
In this world before you
Cause I don't wanna live another day without you now

This is the best thing
The best thing that could be happening
And I think you would agree
The best thing is that it's
Happening to you and me

All I'm gonna have
Is all that you can give me
And I'll give right back
Everything I have in me
Cause nothing ever felt as right
As this does right now

I'll go back to before we met
Try and erase the past
Try harder to forget cause
Nothing will ever be as good as here and now

Cause when I looked into your eyes
And you dared to stare right back
You should've said "Nice to meet you, I'm your other half"

And this is the best thing
The best thing that could be happening
And I think you would agree
The best thing is that it's happening
This is the best thing (the best thing)
The best thing that could be happening (the best thing)
And I think you would agree (whoooaaa whooaa)
The best thing is that it's
Happening to you and me

Always knew
I'd find someone
I never dreamt
It'd be like this
You've surpassed
All that I've hoped for (and ever wished)
And I'm tryin'
So hard
With all my heart and mind
To make your life
As good as you've made mine

This is the best thing (the best thing)
The best thing that could be happening (the best thing)
And I think you would agree (whooaaa)
The best thing is that it's happening to you and me

The best thing is that it's happening to you and me
The best thing is that it's happening to you and me

(The best thing) The best thing that could be happening
(The best thing) I think you would agree
The best thing is that it's happening to you and me

The Best Thing ~ Relient K


You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep Holding On ~ Avril Lavigne

I love Relient K, they're an awesome band.
I'm not so much a fan of Avril Lavigne, mostly because of the language in the songs... but this song is awesome.


Whoa! Sorry, my letters got huge!!! I fixed it, though. I apologize. @)~

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Brief... maybe.

Hihihi!
Yeah, my brain died. I've been up and running for two days... and I'm feeling the effects.
Last night we went to and English Country Dance! It was super fun.
Today I went to ballet the straight to Salvation Army where we worked for six and a half hours...
I'm dead tired.
This post didn't have a point... so I'll ask a question.
uhm....
...
Okay, here's one.
Have you ever thought of what it would be like to be married?

And, I apologize for grammar fails. :)

@)~

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

What's happening?

I'm trembling just about all the time. I'm scared just about all the time. I don't know what's happening, but it needs to stop.
One of my best friends worried himself sick about me... literally sick.
That shouldn't happen.
We're in desperate need of prayer.
Thanks.
@)~

Monday, September 21, 2009

Avoiding Papers...

I'm supposed to be writing an anatomy paper, but I'm really not focused... also, I don't have ballet today! This means I have three hours more to do stuff and stuff and stuff. Like school and school and school....
There was a point of this entry, but I forgot what it was... so I'll tell you a story.
I'm sitting outside of Border's, eating my delicious (not) dinner from McDonald's... yummy, right? I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket, so I get it out and look at it. (I had put ten dollars in my pocket, and didn't realize it flew out with my phone... *sadface*) I received a picture text from my friend, Brandon. Unfortunately, I don't have text, so I call him to see what's up. He says, 'Jalen (one of my best friends) cut his hand open on glass, and now we're taking him to the hospital.' I freak out... what do you say to someone who just sliced open his hand?? As I'm on the phone, Lydia, my eight-year-old sister is pestering me, asking what she should read. Every time I suggest something, she says "No!!!!!!" Brandon hands the phone to Jalen, and I ask how he's doing. He says, "Fine. I tripped and ripped open my hand..." I think, Jalen? Trip? Well, there's a first for everything... "Yeah, and I'm wearing my white jacket..." Ouch....... "At least it's my right hand, not my left." He's left handed, by the way. He hands the phone back to Brandon, who says, "We're almost at the hospital, so I'm gonna go. Before I do, Jalen says 'Psych.'" WHAT?!?!?
I have to congratulate them for one of the best jokes on me ever, but I'm mad at myself for falling for it. *sigh* Ah well, what good is life if you don't laugh at yourself every once in a while?

There's also a movie I really want to see called Cirque Du Freak. Do not watch the trailer if you have a fear of vampires, etc. I'm kind of weird that way, though. We might see it for my friend's birthday, only thing is, we're the only two of our friends who want to see it... and he's a boy... so that would be slightly awkward...

I really can't remember what the point of this was... Oh man!!! That's frustrating... especially since I do this a lot. Ah, well.

Sarah @)~

Saturday, September 19, 2009

What a Night!

Last night I went to a Tim Hawkins concert last night. He's a Christian comedian, who's really, really funny. I laughed so hard, this morning I woke up with a side cramp. *ouch ouch*
Unfortunately, I got home at 1, and it's really starting to show. I'm extremely unfocused and can't do research for a paper I should be writing.... I've made at least 10 typos in the past 10 seconds. 5 in these sentences alone.... I didn't wake up until 10, which would be great! If I didn't have ballet at 10:45. There's was a Michigan football game, so we had to leave at 10. Oops.
Oh well, that's how it is.

There's a line in a song, Supersonic by Family Force 5, I've been thinking a lot of lately. It goes "Act like a fool 'cause you just don't care." I am the kind of person who will deeply think about something someone said about her. I can remember things people said about me two years ago. It's definitely not the greatest trait I have. However, does it really matter? I mean, really. We really are not going to be on this earth for very long. Why do we care what other people think? Why do we need to be the best we can for others? If I need to be perfect for humans, who are imperfect, why don't I try as hard to be perfect for God? Sometimes I supposed I take my salvation for granted. I should work on that.
Just thoughts.

Sarah @)~

Sunday, September 6, 2009

My mother is back! Huzzah!

So, my mom is back from a trip to St. Louis, MO!
This means we get real food, and my computer back! There shouldn't be a comma there, but I'm too lazy to erase it.
She brought me an ESV Journaling Bible, which is super cool. It has about 2 inches of black margin in which to write notes! Unfortunately, it doesn't have a concordance, so I still have to use my old NIV Study Bible for that, darn it.
While I was looking through it today I came up on one of my favorite verses.
2 Corinthians 12:9 'But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you. For my power is made perfect in weakness."'
Then I came up on another one that I really like.
1 John 4:18 'There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. '
These verses seem to have a lot to do with my current stance in life...
I think that's it... so!
Love y'all!
~Sarah~ @)~

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Oh dang.

Hey y'all,
Well I'm feeling kind of down and out at the moment. To make a long story short, I reacted in a way I shouldn't have... which probably led to one of my friends feeling really bad... oops...
Drama, drama, drama. Why do we deal with it? I don't know. Why do we encourage it? I don't know. Maybe to feed our human minds and hearts. I don't understand. I know I encourage it. I wish I didn't, and I wish it was reduced significantly... but I guess it's just one of those things.
It's late, so I should go to bed now...
Good night!
Sarah @)~

Monday, August 31, 2009

I'm back!

Hey y'all,
Sorry I haven't posted in a while, but I had a summer job that just ate up my time. And let me tell you, painting porches is very tiring work...
Just FYI, this post might be kind of scatterbrained, because I stayed up until about 1:30 last night... oops... Now I'm slightly ill, and my brain is totally missing.
In other news, welcome back to school! I just finished getting a ton of notebooks, folders, etc. I also got some Skullcandy speakers for my iPod! With a clicker, (or remote control, for all you weird people) so I don't have to run back and forth across the room while I'm teaching! I teach dance, by the way. Cha-ching!! I'm psyched.
I must be a 90's kid... yesterday I used the term 'problemo' and it made me slightly nostalgic... haha. I also use the phrases 'the bomb' and 'psych'... Tell me, am I weird? Or is at 90's kid thing?

It's time for something interesting.
I'll make a list of some of my favorite songs, and some favorite lines from them.

Time of Dying ~ Three Days Grace :: "I will not die, I'll wait here for you. I feel alive when you're beside me."
Animal I Have Become ~ Three Days Grace :: I just really love the bass in that song.
Love Story ~ Taylor Swift :: "Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess."
There For You ~ Flyleaf :: "I hear the whispered words in your masterpiece beautiful. You speak the unspeakable. I love you, too"
So Help Me God ~ Fireflight :: "So help me God to let this go. To let this go. So help me God to break this hold. To find myself."
Wrapped in Your Arms ~ Fireflight :: "I here to stay, nothing can separate us. I know I'm okay. You cradle me gently. Wrapped in your arms, I'm home. I'm home."
Everything ~ Lifehouse :: You just have to hear that one. It's awesome.
Barlow girls ~ Superchic[k] :: I love all the words.
Princes and Frogs (Underdog Mix) ~ Superchic[k] :: "All princes start as frogs, all gentlemen as dogs. Just wait 'till it's plain to see what we're growing up to be. 'Cause some frogs will still be frogs and some dogs will still be dogs. Some boys will become men, just don't kiss us 'till then."
Deliverance ~ We As Human :: "And then one day I met you and you took it all away! I no longer hate myself..."
I'm Taking You With Me ~ Reliant K :: I love all the words.

I have a lot more 'favorite' songs... but here's a small list.
Also, any suggestions for songs I should buy?

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Disappointed and Disappointing

Alright, serious post time.

On Saturday I went to see Ponyo (very cute, by the way) at Quality 16. When we got back to their house we were planning on taking a bike ride around the neighborhood. About fifteen minutes after we get back and three and a half hours before we're supposed to leave, I get a phone call from my mom. She says she's sick, my little sister is bored, and we need to come home right away. I was extremely frustrated with Lydia, my mom, and pretty much everything in life.
On Sunday we were supposed to go to the beach with our friends, however my mom was still sick, so we couldn't. We rescheduled it for tomorrow, Wednesday the 19th. Unfortunately, I've been planning a trip to Cedar Pointe, an amusement park, for tomorrow for about 11 months now.
My mom is mad at me because I'm choosing to go to Cedar Pointe instead of the beach. I'm just sticking with my commitment. I view my commitments as promises, things not to be broken.

I'm kind of down right now, so prayer would be cool. Prayer to not freak out at my mom for freaking out at me. Prayer to know that I've made the right decision... or wrong one. Prayer for peace. Thanks a bunch.

@)~ Sarah ~(@

Oh, right. I also chopped off all my hair. ...And I'm not Catholic, my friend just gave me a rosary, which I hung up on my wall.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

God's poking me...

So, today I'm hanging out at the Common Cup, which is a café in the basement of our church.
I'm on the computer, obviously. I tried to log onto my Facebook, but it wouldn't work. I kept trying, but it kept freezing, which meant I needed to keep restarting Firefox. That was irritating. Then I realized, 'You know, I spend so much time on Facebook, and not enough time helping my mom, or playing with my sisters, or stuff that's way more important that talking to friends on a virtual world.' I think stuff like AIM, Yahoo messenger, and Facebook are great, but they can consume your life. You can spend hours doing absolutely nothing except staring at a screen watching pointless movies. There are so much better things to do!!
Today I just felt God going *poke poke* I'm still here. *poke poke* Do the work your mom told you to do. *poke poke* Come on, you need to stop centering your life around friends.
Whoa. That's kind of big for me. Friends are probably the biggest part of my life. They're probably getting even bigger than God... oops. So. I'm going to try and give God the glory, give God the praise, give God the attention in all I do.

~(@ Sarah @)~

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Today's the DAAAAAY! The sun is SHINING!!!!! The tank is CLEEEEEEAN!!!!

Yes, I'm quoting Nemo.
Quoting is a fun way of talking, I suppose. We play a game in drama improv where you have to talk using only the names of songs or the names of books... it's extremely difficult. You have to be really smart/a real nerd to play. *laugh* Just kidding. But you do have to know a lot about music in order to play. Which I don't... dang.

I really need to clean my room... and my letters decided to italicize themselves without my permission. Oh well, it looks cccoll.... col.cool. Oh, wow.... I need some more sleep. My sisters went to drama camp this morning and were really really loud, which woke me up. Gr.

Off to the cleaning! Urgh.

~(@ Sarah @)~

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Mixer Explosion!

Alright, story time!!

About a year or so ago, my mom was cooking with our electric mixer. All of a sudden, she hears a loud 'POP' and the mixer turns off. She looks down and sees Lydia, my little sister, with a pair of dognail clippers... and the wire cut in half. We still have a black spot on our silverware drawers from where it exploded. I thought it was hilarious. Lydia, however, did not. She started crying, poor thing. Now we have a pink mixer, with which, I'm in the process of making a cake!!!!
The end.

And I'm changing my signature.
~(@ {Sarah} @)~

Friday, August 7, 2009

Prayer would be cool...

Hey,
I'm kind of freaking out. I don't know what's happening, but at this point I just feel like I'm on autopilot. I'd just like stuff to get back to the way it was... even though I know that's not going to happen. As close to normal as possible... which is pretty dang far from regular normal for me. *smirk*
Life is weird.
It decides to be wonderful for a couple days, then all of a sudden decides to throw a curve ball at me. But, I guess that's how it works.
Maybe I haven't been depending on God enough in my good times, as well as in my rough ones. Oops. Well, word of advice: Lean on God even when your life seems like nothing could go wrong!

Thanks,
Sarah @)~

Monday, August 3, 2009

Ho, wow.

I don't know where to start...... I'm just kind of... wheeee!!!!
I need to go to Best Buy sometime soon... my iPod is dead, and the charger that connects to the computer isn't working... Nor will my iPod turn on... *crying*

I'm excited for tomorrow! Brandon is bringing his guitar and I'm bringing my violin and we're going to play worship songs!!
Today I was playing my violin and I learned a song called Tambourin by Grétry, or something like that... I don't remember his name. It's a pretty easy song, but it's really fancy and sounds hard. It's also really fun.

I'm just really tired today... and really hungry. It's nine and I still haven't eaten dinner... oops!

Hugs and Kisses,
~Sarah~

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Algebra Needs To Die

Hey y'all,
I'm stuck at home, doing Algebra.... I can't figure out the stupid factoring thingy.
My dad went to pick up my mom and sisters in Chicago, and my party did not go as planned. Phooey.
uhm.... I really don't have much to say. I left my sword at CTK last night, which made me kind of sad. My Bible debate didn't happen as planned... so facebook will have to do.
I'm off to see the Wizard.
I'm not in a good mood. rawr. Agitation hangover?
Oh, and mosquitoes think I'm hot. *laugh*

Hugs and Kisses,
~Sarah~

Monday, July 27, 2009

Adventure #1

Hey y'all!!

So, day one. We had just gotten there. We were in bed, and it's like 11:30-ish. We hear this beeping and and a little light flashing under our door. I look through the peephole in our door and see a bright flashing light. I go out the door, and what is going off but the fire alarm. We suspect somebody burned popcorn or something. Anywho. The whole dorm has to go outside and stand in the parking lot for about 20 minutes while the police come and check on the building. Woo-hoo! Adrenaline rush!

Hugs and Kisses,
~Sarah~
........ it would take hours to recount the quotes of Ballet Mag. But, I'll tell you one. Now, you have to imagine 3am, me in a very sleepy voice, absolutely serious. I didn't laugh at all. It was weird. And really long. But hilarious. Very Happy

So, Katie (a girl in level 8) comes into our hall with a legwarmer wrapped around her head, a banana in her hand, and a posse of banana holders behind her. They kidnap Beth, our counselor, then let her go. About 5 minutes later, Lindsay (a girl in level 9) runs into our hall screaming, "Where are my bananas?!?" Katie and her posse run in, still holding the bananas, and hold up Lindsay.
Later, while Rachel and I are laying in bed getting ready for sleep, we're talking about ninjas. Then pirates. I say, "Pirates names always have something to do with beard. Blackbeard, Whitebeard, Graybeard..."
Rachel says, "Bluebeard, Purplebeard..."
I say, "Pinkbeard!"
Rachel says, "Pinkbeard the pirate would be gay."
I say, "I'm pink beard the pirate, and I'm a girl, so that doesn't work.... and I have a ship. Made of sponge. The sponge holes are really big, so it's like a cavernous cave in my ship. And it's coated with tar, so it doesn't sink. My sail is made of cheese, so it's not electric conducing... er... it doesn't conduct electricity. I sail around in my ship and fight the good guys. Except, I always win, because bad guys always win. The good pirates will come on my ship, but I have my little Reepicheep mouse rapier and stab them full of holes and they spurt blood, and it's a beautiful sight. Then my crew is made of bunnies. Well, people with bunny ears and bunny tails and bunny legs. And they carry claymores. So we went to this village and I ordered my crew to attack. The chopped up the houses so they fell down and crushed all the people inside. They dug them up and threw them in the ocean. The ocean turned a nice shade of red, and it was a beautiful sight. Then we went to the king. The first mate held him up with his claymore and said, 'Pinkbeard the Pirate wants you to be a captive.' And the king says, 'Pinkbeard the pirate is gay.' And I say, 'Pinkbeard the Pirate is a woman.' Then the King follows and I put him in my deep cavernous ship, and put him through unimaginable torture. He gets stung by anemia... I mean.... amememenenome.... anemone. But only one at a time, very slowly. Then when he's in so much pain that he can't stand it, the ship sponges him full of water, then sucks it all out again. Then the anemone sting again. The repeats until he dies of starvation. Then we go to my island, which is shaped like a heart. In the inverted point of the heart, like the top, I have a parking spot for my pirate ship. And I drive my pirate ship around the island and park there. In the middle of the island is my castle, which is made of marshmellows... no. It's a regular castle, only it's covered in marshmellows, and the sun melts them, so I have a white sticky shiny castle."
At this point, Rachel is asleep, so I stop.

This is what happens when it's 3 in the morning and I've had 20oz of Dr. Pepper.

Hugs and Kisses!
~Sarah~