Hey guys,
So, last night I went to a prayer meeting. I've been sick, I was tired, and I didn't eat dinner, so I was feeling really out of it. Well, I don't know what happened, but I was feeling really, really sad. I kept feeling like something was going to take my friends away. Like it was taking them away... I was just shaking and crying, and could hardly move by myself... I didn't want to let go of my friend who was sitting praying with me. It got so bad that I ended up having to be carried to my car. Not cool.
I don't know what it was, but I don't want it to come back. I know that it was pushing lies at me, because really? What's going to take you guys away? However, it was scary. I was in a really weak state, too, so it got to me way more than it normally would....
Soooo prayer would be super cool....
I'm better now. Well, somewhat. I can walk now... My nose is incredibly stuffy, probably from a combination of being sick and crying... I feel kinda light-headed, too... Ah well. I'll be fine. No worries!
Oh, another thing. Don't worry. About anything. I know everybody does, but it's really not healthy. I appreciate it when people worry about me, but I don't really like it... I mean, I know it means they care enough to fret, but worry just leads to stress... which is probably one of the main factors of the episode as described above. So! Don't worry! God will take care of it in the way and in the time he has planned.
On a happier note, Explorers is over for the semester, so I don't have much homework for a while! Yes! I need to think of Christmas and Nutcracker now... *determined* Alright! Come on Sarah! Only a couple more weeks!
Love,
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Sarah, I'm sorry you were feeling so sad. Maybe it's a lie that you-know-who likes to throw at us to make us not trust in our Lord. But also in my experience God had put a deep sadness in my heart that I believed is His sadness. When a friend was really ill, I really felt God's sadness for her. When I got to know people who didn't know Jesus, I felt God's grief in my heart.
ReplyDelete"Fear not, for fear is not of the Lord." I don't remember what the reference is and I'm too lazy right now to look it up.
Also, feel free to come to me and talk about things and your feelings. I know it's hard for you, but I'm here.