Disappointment

Have you ever wanted something so badly and everybody around you said it would happen...
and then...

it didn't.

Have you ever met someone and knew in an instant that you were going to be friends forever...
and then...

you weren't.

Have you ever known something would happen with every single particle in your being...
and then...

it didn't.

Sometimes it's a good thing.
This is not one of those times.
This is one of those times where all I want to do is lay in bed and not think about anything.
Not think about anything...
and think about everything.
I don't want to be mad...
I want to be furious...
I can't be mad.
I don't want to be sad...
I want so cry so bad...
I can't be sad.
I can't see the good in this.
I can't see why it happened.
I have to be patient.
I have to wait until it's explained.
Even when it's explained...
I won't understand.

Love,
Sarah @)~